Weird, but fucking beautiful

I’ve never been to the beach in October because I didn’t think I’d enjoy a cold beach.

I was wrong, wrong. May have the most beautiful time of the year to go to the beach. Even without the bathing suit. Especially without the swimsuit?? 🤷‍♀️

Saw a seal, saw no other humans in sight 💯 could have screamed if I was alone 💯

Visited the Nauset Beach Lighthouse on this excursion, too. Built in 1877 – moved to its present location in 1996 – the lighthouse was also gorgeous.

Full on winter coat, pants and shoes with the waves crashing in towards me. Asking to ruin my day with soggy socks and feet. In the words of tswift and Lana Del Ray’s snow on the beach… “weird but fucking beautiful.”

Xoxo

Taylor

Make it in Massachusetts

Visiting Milan for our yearly trip to New England. We’ve hit a lot of new spots – and off to the cape for the first time tomorrow ❤️⚓️

Massachusetts is absolutely gorgeous right now. The fall colors and spooky weather are unmatched and I’m so happy to experience it.

Since I’m not super into museums and history – and that’s what we’ve been doing- I’ve been forced to slow down enough to notice the beautiful scenery before zoning out completely.

I’ll get and extra long fall once I get back to Arkansas and that’s fine with me.

❤️

Taylor

Fall ✨

This weekend felt like the first REAL weekend of Fall. My autumnal equinox if you will.

September was too damn hot to feel like Fall. Between my mental illness and never going outside bc the world is on fire, I voided September altogether.

So here is what made this weekend feel like fall – finally 🧡🎃

The weather, getting together with friends at the brewery, darker hair, pumpkin seeds 🤤, decor and so, so many deer in the front yard.

Xoxo,

Taylor ❤️

East of Eden

This show has a chokehold on me.

A fucking chokehold.

Who needs a life when they make shows this good? Who can discuss this show with me? Florence Pugh? Didn’t know they made actresses like her. Costa D’ Angelo as young Adam Trask? Don’t do it to me! 🥵

The outfits, the locations, the storyline!!!

I’ll be here any free moment I have until I’ve watched it all.

Omg. I don’t even like TV.

10/10 Zoe Kazan.

Now I’m going to read Stienbeck’s book to help me understand his philosophy of timshel “thou mayest”

The 👏🏼 message 👏🏼

Xoxo

Taylor

Five of Cups

Pulled the five of cups today.😅

Sadness is a normal human emotion.

It’s getting caught up in the feeling of sadness that’s the problem.

Honoring my sadness + grief today but also honoring myself.

Noticing and choosing to show up in the present moment over + over and not being stuck in my head.

I can feel my sadness in one hand and my joy for all the things going right in the other.

I can choose to feel all of it at once and then choose to look up, look at what I do have and move forward.

Been standing on my head a lot because why not?

Xoxo

Taylor

Things that made me happy today

  1. Walking on Mount Kessler
  2. New mismatching bed sheets + clean bedding
  3. Freshly cleaned spaces that I worked my ass off for
  4. Espresso + cig + lighter sleeve
  5. Not leaving the house for anything other than dropping Kessler off
  6. My friend Ashleigh sending me a bunch of Greta Van Fleet songs
  7. Getting stuck in road construction for 30 minutes but it allowing me time to read the book I had in the car
  8. Neighbor brought me flowers
  9. Playing with silly string when Kessler got home

So many things 🩷💖 what made you happy today?

Xoxo

Taylor

Parent Teacher Conferences

My teachers always had some shit to say about me.

She talks too much

She’s dramatic

She has a bad attitude

I was usually met with gentleness from my mom.

But she got tired of it too 😬

With this in mind I promised myself that at Kessler’s parent teacher conference no matter what was said that I would defend her, praise her, tell her she’s such a good girl and remind her how much I love her.

My daughter is fucking perfect, ok!? 🤣🤣❤️

She was out of school today so we went on a bike ride, got a macaroon and a new craft. We snuggled and laughed and I made sure I told her I loved her over and over.

Her report from the teacher was great, and she’s super smart – which I already knew.

But what if it had gone differently? Isn’t this still the treatment she deserves?

Happy National Daughters Day, Kessy! Love you baby.

Xoxo

Taylor

Ranking my summer outfits from best to worst.

Maybe I’ll stop taking mirror selfies at some point and make these images more fashion forward but haven’t found that kind of motivation yet. So here you go.

Ranking my wearable Nuuly + favorite closet pieces from best to worst.

1. Pointelle Crop Top by Zemeta and Agoldie Jeans – obsessed. these are the best jeans I’ve ever owned.

2. Lululemon Align Set in pink – so comfy I could wear them everyday if possible.

3. Emery Mini Dress by Show Me Your Mumu – should have bought this dress but didn’t. Effortless, comfy, flattering.

4. Fit and Flare tie back mini dress by Kimchi Blue – sooooo fun, never would have bought this irl, so glad I rented it!

5. Paneled Shift Dress by Anthro- Adorable fabric + trendy with the polka dots. Covered my armpit fat (which is the only reason it’s ranking in at 5.) No shape otherwise.

6. Pact Organic Cotton square neck tank + justUSA jeans + vintage American Eagle weaved belt + Ariat boots – just a country girl at heart.

7. Cotton James Perse hand-me-down tee + Vintage Lucky brand jeans also cotton – mom chic asf

8. ASTR the label top + old navy jeans + favorite earrings + flip flops. This one honestly ranks higher but I’m not reassigning numbers.

9. Polo Shirt by Guizio + Beyond Yoga Skort – sooo cute but I don’t golf

10. Skims maxi dress ranks #10 because that color – horrid. The shape and feel of the dress also do not love. Shows every imperfection.

Honorable mentions:

This was fun!!!

Xoxo,

Taylor

Art

Bentonville makes me happy.

I can always find something to admire.

a hidden gem

a neon sign

an interesting shadow

A lot of people say it feels manufactured but that’s not the experience I have when I’m there.

I was spoiled and lived downtown in 2020 during the height of Covid. My rent was cheap and I loved it there. And I miss it.

Today was nice, despite running in four hours of sleep.

Xoxo

Taylor

Black and White film

Bought this B&W film at iris art haus and I’m so happy with how it photographed! Here are a few cute shots from the roll.

Kessler Jane the artist
August 2026
Cannas got huge this year despite the drought
Baby Bendyl
Caleb’s girlfriend acts up more than I do. Dropper post constantly breaking.
Kessler can ride her bike without training wheels at four. She blows me away.

Getting film back is the best part about shooting film.

Xoxo,

Taylor