This show has a chokehold on me.

A fucking chokehold.

Who needs a life when they make shows this good? Who can discuss this show with me? Florence Pugh? Didn’t know they made actresses like her. Costa D’ Angelo as young Adam Trask? Don’t do it to me! 🥵

The outfits, the locations, the storyline!!!

I’ll be here any free moment I have until I’ve watched it all.

Omg. I don’t even like TV.

10/10 Zoe Kazan.

Now I’m going to read Stienbeck’s book to help me understand his philosophy of timshel “thou mayest”

The 👏🏼 message 👏🏼

Xoxo

Taylor

Pulled the five of cups today.😅

Sadness is a normal human emotion.

It’s getting caught up in the feeling of sadness that’s the problem.

Honoring my sadness + grief today but also honoring myself.

Noticing and choosing to show up in the present moment over + over and not being stuck in my head.

I can feel my sadness in one hand and my joy for all the things going right in the other.

I can choose to feel all of it at once and then choose to look up, look at what I do have and move forward.

Xoxo

Taylor

1. Walking on Mount Kessler
2. New mismatching bed sheets + clean bedding
3. Freshly cleaned spaces that I worked my ass off for
4. Espresso + cig + lighter sleeve
5. Not leaving the house for anything other than dropping Kessler off
6. My friend Ashleigh sending me a bunch of Greta Van Fleet songs
7. Getting stuck in road construction for 30 minutes but it allowing me time to read the book I had in the car
8. Neighbor brought me flowers
9. Playing with silly string when Kessler got home

So many things 🩷💖 what made you happy today?

Xoxo

Taylor

My teachers always had some shit to say about me.

She talks too much

She’s dramatic

She has a bad attitude

I was usually met with gentleness from my mom.

But she got tired of it too 😬

With this in mind I promised myself that at Kessler’s parent teacher conference no matter what was said that I would defend her, praise her, tell her she’s such a good girl and remind her how much I love her.

My daughter is fucking perfect, ok!? 🤣🤣❤️

She was out of school today so we went on a bike ride, got a macaroon and a new craft. We snuggled and laughed and I made sure I told her I loved her over and over.

Her report from the teacher was great, and she’s super smart – which I already knew.

But what if it had gone differently? Isn’t this still the treatment she deserves?

Happy National Daughters Day, Kessy! Love you baby.

Xoxo

Taylor

Bentonville makes me happy.

I can always find something to admire.

a hidden gem

a neon sign

an interesting shadow

A lot of people say it feels manufactured but that’s not the experience I have when I’m there.

I was spoiled and lived downtown in 2020 during the height of Covid. My rent was cheap and I loved it there. And I miss it.

Today was nice, despite running in four hours of sleep.

Xoxo

Taylor

Bought this B&W film at iris art haus and I’m so happy with how it photographed! Here are a few cute shots from the roll.

Getting film back is the best part about shooting film.

Xoxo,

Taylor

Just the phrase Rhea Lana’s used to make my eyes roll back deep into my head. I am a Goodwill Girlie. A Cheap Thrills Diva. Beautiful Lives + Onyx – you know it.

But going to a toddler consignment was an automatic no!! There was nothing for me there!! Right?

I’d been hearing about Rhea Lana’s long before I was pregnant. If I had a penny for every time someone told me to go to RHEA LANA’S... I could pay for the ticket to get into RHEA LANA’S!! But I didn’t, and I wasn’t going to pay for a ticket to get into a toddler’s shopping event. Who wants to shop with a million other moms to buy USED toddler things?

Apparently me. $200 worth of used toddler things to be exact. And the mom’s checking out around me $600, $300 dollars worth. My friend Morgan invited me to be her plus 1 to the pre-sale. Couldn’t tell her no when she did ALL the heavy lifting. Told me where to go, handed me a free entry, told me what time to show up, and what to expect.

I’m so glad I went! It was fun and organized and seriously good shit.

This business is genius. This event is genius. And these profesh Rhea Lana’s moms know exactly what they are doing.

Dare I say I’ll be back? Next time I’m taking more water, more snacks, and better shopping shoes. Gotta keep that energy up for the thousands of outfits and shoes to sift through.

Kessler is pumped about the toys and clothes I got her.

Who am I?

xoxo,

Taylor

Ohhh it was there the whole time! I just chose to ignore it. LOL!

Woke up some deep anger yesterday. It all started during yoga. Amanda created and shared her amazing/challenging class and when I couldn’t get into the peak posture – over and over again – pissed. After I gave her a hug, thanked her and left:

*realized it was never about the yoga posture*

Pissed

Anger

Mad

Wanted to punch someone

Searched for something, anything to stop feeling angry

Retail therapy

Felt better

Woke up today, skipped my workout

Angry

Moved throughout the day fine

Went to therapy

Angry

Went on a run before picking up Kessler hoping that would help release it

Even more pissed

Why is it still so fucking hot out

I wonder how much longer I get to sit with this anger. I wonder what it’s gonna get me through. Has this anger ways been here? Is it always there, waiting on me to recognize it? Or was it there, gone, there again?

Idk I’m still kinda pissed though so I’m gonna go lay in the creek about it.

❤️❤️❤️

Taylor

This full moon 🌕 is one that I am feeling. So much emotional turmoil in my life that my head literally hurts. It is time to release that and let this season come to completion. The Sturgeon full moon symbolizes survival and inner strength. Inner strength I’ve been gaining all summer, possibly in preparation for this full moon arrival.

I have grown more spiritually just this summer than I have in my entire life. It has been uncomfortable, tbh. 

Growing up going to church was never it for me. I don’t connect with a higher power by listening to readings from the Bible and singing hymns. Not that there is anything wrong with it, it’s just not for me.

Yoga philosophy got me closer. It quieted the non-stop chatter going on in my mind and opened me to receiving – but it still wasn’t clicking. 

I read books and listened to podcasts but still nothing. I mostly used my imagination on what the soul and spirit were.

Then my best friend lost her child this summer. Heartbreaking and heart opening enough that I felt Elliott near me and saw her little glimmers around the room. I loved her and I never even knew her. Her spirit is so vibrant. Thank you, Elliott, for showing me that. 

Without elaborating the internal battles and identity crisis I’ve faced this summer have sparked genuine curiosity about my souls path and what my life on Earth is teaching me. Apparently a lot. Even though it has not been fun it has made me think a lot deeper than I have in years.

With love from the full moon,

Taylor

Haven’t posted about fashion in sooooo long!

Fashion. I used to be very passionate about it. Scouring goodwill stores and sale racks everywhere to make *it* happen.

One kid, two saggy boobs and many days of only leaving the house to workout, there I was. Sitting on the couch wondering when the last time I washed my hair or put jeans on was.

At the advice of a trusted friend and the need to feel better about my outward appearance, I decided to give Nuuly a try. Nuuly is a company that sends you 6 pieces of high end clothing a month at an affordable rate. I wear them for the month and then send back.

And here I am, feeling cute and fashionable again.

If you decide to give Nuuly a try, use this link to get $10 your first month —-> $10 off for referring a friend.

Xoxo, Taylor